BLUR by Christine Sy
Ever since I was a little girl, I had a pretty clear picture of the life that I would like to live. As a 7 year old little girl, my life plan climaxed at 21! Anything after that, I didn’t know or plan what I would be doing or who I’ll be.
So here’s basically what I pictured my life to be… I’ll study hard. Get good grades. Finish at the top of my class. Attend prom. Gain Friends. Get in the top college. Finish with honors. Have a grand 21st birthday. Then…. THAT’S it!! hehe (Well, not entirely… the next picture I had in mind was a picture of Me as a mother of 4 kids having dinner in my nice fancy home.. then that’s really about it.) I didn’t have any plans after I peaked my life at 21. Everything after 21 and before I become a mother of 4 kids was now a just a blur to me. A space of unknown. A gray area. An idea that I was not so happy about. Nothing much more to live for. Nothing much to pursue.
So yes, I was able to successfully do live the life that I planned. I got to accomplish the goals that I wanted to achieve. I was very performance oriented. So I was happy with how I was performing.I was hitting the ball out of the park with the things that I am making.
But then came the Blur. I became 22, 23, 24 and now am turning SILVER in 26 days!!! So what made me write this blog? What’s the point of this whole story. (I promise there is..) Living in a BLUR apparently is not so bad after all. Actually, it’s more than good. During the Blur, things seem to land on my lap at the right moment in time without me having to really do much. Opportunities open left and right. Yes, admittedly there were some areas in my life that I questioned because I wasn’t sure if I was in the right track. But that’s the beauty of the blur. It’s a never ending process of learning, failing, achieving, enjoying each season and gaining wisdom from it. Moreover, my ultimate revelation of the Blur is about God’s Glory shining in my life. It is during this time that God became more real to me. I did and do experience Him in a much higher and deeper level every single day. Because, while in the blur, I find myself hanging on to Him and His word more, seeking more of Him and learning more from Him. During the blur did I and continually do find God’s light to guide me in every single (big or small) decision that I make.
Ever since I graduated from college, I have been exposed to different business opportunities. I started a childrens clothing line with my sister, I became marketing and store development manager for my brother and now am handling our family business. All of these things in just a span of 4 years of blur. And all I can say is that at this point am having the time of my life, and i have no plans in slowing down.
I thought that Life would be much better lived when you have a concrete plan on how to live it. But then I realized that life is not about black-and-white planning. It’s about surprises and letting God unfold the plan that He has for us before we were even born. It’s about Eureka moments about you, your relationships and God. So I challenge you guys to let go and live. To risk and experience the rewards. To not be conscious and cautious about every small thing. To not worry and grow weary about life unknowns.
Here’s are two verses that always lets me sleep soundly every time I am haunted by my initial doubts and thoughts about the BLUR.
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34) and “Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10).
So to end, I wish you all a Blurry-ful Life. 🙂